Thinking about what this means

Im not really sure what I was expecting when I came up with name for my blog heartland feeling, but I am thinking that I discover a little more about what it means to me everyday. Its that point when you take a step back mentally from what you are doing and you get that feeling that this is exactly where you are supposed to be. Right here Right now. Everything has fallen exactly into place where it supposed to and you know it. Its like a secret revelation to yourself. The funny thing is most of the time its not when you are in deep meditation in some far off mountain in hymalaians, but when you are among people, intimate friends or complete strangers, experiancing some kind of event together. For instance today Brian and I were invited to Johnvir's, a guy on staff with CAI, to learn cook lasgna. I like the idea of having people over to not only have a meal but also to teach them to cook something as well, because you get to see the people in their natural element. Its not like a normal dinner party where the host feels like they have to make the house look perfect and then conversation at the during the meal is mainly superficial while maintaining a level of awkwardness. The time there was so real and intimate. They taught us how to prepare the meal and while we were waiting for it to bake Johnvir, Brian, and I went to the park to try and shoot hoops, while Mel watched baby Max. After the hour of ballin we arrived back to a house smelling of glorious lasagna. All throughout the evening we basked in great conversation. Even after the meal there wasnt that feeling that you had over stayed your welcome. Although, Mel had to go upstairs to grade paper, Johnvir, Brian, and I continued conversation as we cleaned up the meal and enjoyed some Belgian chocolate. Our conversation wasnt that deep or revelatory in any way it was just talk about life, exchanging stories and experiences. At this point in the conversation I mentally just zoned out for a minute and thought to myself, wait I hardly even know these people and not once has it been awkward in the 7 hrs I have spent with them. And it was at that point I realized that this just a piece of what heartland feeling means. Its experiences. Its stories. Its feelings. Its people. Its places. Its events. Its real. Its deep. Its fleeting. Its rare. Its candid. Above all Its personal. You never know when it will show up, but you will know exactly when it has arrived. Our conversation ended around 930 because Mel was tired and had to get up to teach tomorrow morning. But I just reflected on the evening and the idea of heartland feeling the whole walk home and snapped this pic that I though was fitting to end an enlightening evening.